I’ve been looking back at the posts in this blog, and came across one where I was writing about graduating back in August. I wrote of continuing to blog and take photographs, and then only sporadically updated…my blog posts have been lacking, and I feel bad about that. Life just got super busy around December.
I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I really shouldn’t be working two jobs at once, at least, not two retail jobs. One is enough for me. I was working so much I had no time to take pictures. No time to even work on any personal projects or even to try and start to set up a business. After I was let go/fired from Richmond Camera, I spent a lot of time reflecting upon the past 5 months or so. I was working way too much to the point of not having any personal time, like I said above, I didn’t even hardly have time to breathe. I think I was starting to lose myself actually, now that I look back. The closest thing I was doing that was even distantly related to the degree I graduated with was selling cameras, and helping old people choose the photos that they wanted to print from a kiosk. I wasn’t even making any of my own work, just looking at everyone else’s photographs of their flower beds and their dogs.
Once I was done beating myself up trying to figure out the reasons why I was let go from my second job, I decided that I really needed to get back into what I want to do in the first place, which is to take pictures. I’ve made a list of things I want to do and need to do to have a rewarding career and life.
It’s a slow process, but I’m starting to work on finding myself again.